I never understood the beauty of being a woman/female till this minute...
After 25 years of hating my gender, I realised all of a sudden that after all, being a woman is an amazing thing...
Being a resident of a patriarcal society built in me all those stereotypical attitudes towards women... Although Im the eldest of 4, my younger brother always had more freedom and more opportunities than I ever did... And thats what I always believed and thought about... Whether is was going out whenever he wanted to, not getting veiled, speaking in whatever tone he wanted without being called either vulgar or sexy, travelling alone, having a girlfriend... And the list can continue forever... Moreover, a girl is always seen as weak, vulnerable, especially when living in a country where street harrassment is one of the main practices of men... Moreover, women shave; basically everywhere and it has to be on a regular basis, PMS, menstruation and its unbearable pain, eye brows, nail polish, and the list can go one forever...
So I simply hated being a woman... I felt that there is no way I could feel the word "Freedom" ever because I will always be under the power of a man... Not just that, but I realised that I cannot even approach a man I like or confess my emotions, coz then, he would call me a whore...
However, this past month I realised how great it is to be a woman... Its amazing actually that God created all this beauty in a human being... When it comes to shaving, I wasnt asked by anyone to shave, I was the one who took the decision at the age of 10 that I want to shave... I wanted to look all feminine and silky... I desired that look and I look forward to that day of the month when Im finally shaved... Same goes with my eyesbrows; I look everyday in the mirror to make sure that they look as perfect as possible... I like putting on oil and cream to feel gorgeous and baby like... I dont have a boyfriend who asks me to do so, nor does anyone see my body or touch it... Its just me... And although I wear the veil, I still insist on doing these things coz it makes me feel confident and gorgeous... Make up is another important factor that makes me enjoy myself, doing my hair, buying new clothes, perfume, everything about us, although filled with complications, but still make us beautiful... Besides, the best feeling in the world is to realise how weak men can get when seeing a woman so elegant, sexy, confident, and beautiful (and let me clarify that beauty is relative)... It is an amazing feeling to realise that you are admired by a man and you are powerful enough to turn him on, or make him love you, or become his "the one"...
Moving on from looks to emotions, women are so emotional, giving, tolerant, motherly, and compassionate... They are filled with emotions that they would love to give to their partner... We crave for settlement and security... We adore the moment when we become the embrace of our man... Its an amazing feeling to know that you are the only one he turns to, talks to, throws himself into; its just... WOW..
We are mothers by nature... It is an amazing feeling to find a creature moving inside your belly... An even more amazing feeling to see him coming out of your belly... Its painful to wake up all night, its tough to raise a kid, its horrible to experience his teenage years, but after all that is over, you look at your child and realise that you brought up a Man/Woman, leading a life, and that person is part of you and you love him/her more than anything in this world... You give without expecting a return and you love them truely from the heart...
Being a girl, a woman, a wife, a mother is awesome... Is the best thing on this planet...
Being the crying shoulder, the care taker, the loved wife, the daughter, the working woman, the girl friend, is all a blessing and I am finally so happy and proud of being a woman
