Resolution # 101: No Men

I was about to kill myself one more time, when all of a sudden I woke up and realised "this dilemma I'm living in is all because of Men"... So why have them when all they cause is trouble and heartaches?!!

No matter what they are or how they are like... They are a cause of trouble, at least for me...
So the solution and the new resolution is "get men out of my life"...

Realistic ones are Jerks...
Romantic ones are poor and unrealistc...
The one you love doesnt even care and sometimes would not even know you exist...
The one that loves you is not the right one... And although you fall and enjoy the love, still there is a major defaux that would make u let it all go...
The tall one is too tall for me and the short one is too short for me...
The mannered one is to behaved that he makes me feel like I'm a bitch and the bastard is too bad for me...

So, concluding this mess, I decided to let them all go.. All of them...
Men, you are a pain in the ass...

Revolution here I come...

I finally understood your meaning... I finally realised what it means to revolt, to object, to disagree, to have your own desires, needs, wants and go for them... I finally understood what it means to take, as opposed to give endlessly and expect no return...

I am not the perfect child anymore, who says "7ader" and obeys blindly without thinking... I am not the successful, the calm, the quite, the behaved and mannered kid... I am not the one without a personality, without any wishes except for that of her parents... I am not dependent and I am not weak... I am not selfless and I am not giving... I am not motherly and I am not romantic... I am not all that anymore... I am someone new... Someone totally different from the one I used to live with...

I dont want to do the groceries... I dont want to have a curfew... I dont want to help at home... I dont want to listen or understand...

I want to go shopping, come home whenever I want and do whatever makes me happy... I never want to go home.. actually I want to move out... I want to be alone and independent for good... I am flying away... I was scared that I would not return to the person I used to be.. But NOW, I hope I dont return to the old me... Ever Again!