I made a choice after some thinking, reading and praying. And I thought this choice is the best in my own opinion and way of thinking and limited background.And I am being attacked for it and I suppose I will be for some time.

I thought democracy meant making your own choice and people accepting that choice because its yours. Like wise, I would accept their choices, views and ways of thinking. This is tolerance I suppose. This is democracy right? Or parts of the concept of democracy.

I feel attacked, alienated, and looked at in certain ways that don't make me feel comfortable. I am not an extremist. But even if I was, people should respect that. This is me and it doesn't make me different from anyone in the world. I have my own beliefs and thoughts and they sure make me happy and make me the way I am. As long as I am not hurting anyone or breaking rules, then I am free right?

I shouldn't feel alienated, actually I should feel proud. I took a decision on my own and made a choice on my own for the first time in my life.

I am 30 and I think its time for me to believe in myself and my abilities. And if they don't like me, its their problem not mine. I shouldn't work on pleasing anyone.
I've lived all my life trying to please everyone and make all happy. And I think its time for me to stop.

This is me. As long as I am not affecting you in any negative way, please give me the level of respect and tolerance I deserve.

Thank you

Chaos is the rule

Complete chaos.
Total destruction.
The worst government that could ever rule a country, especially in such a critical state. The government is so weak, and obviously, the chaotic Egyptians can only be ruled by fear. They have to fear the government, the law, the punishment, the consequences.

And since they fear nothing, they are destroying it.
Where are the people who initiated the sacred revolution? They left it to this ignorant chaotic population. Why didn't we elect a president fast so that we don't fall into this mess. Are we turning into Iraq? Are we soon going to turn into thieves or run out of the country in fear? Is it really a conspiracy? Are there real spies whose aim is to destroy Egypt?

What is wrong with a Christian wanting to build a church? What is wrong with being of a different religion and living in the same country together. We have been like that for ages. What happened? The only difference between Muslims and Christians is the way they worship God. And who the hell cares? This is something personal and private. Everyone should have the freedom to choose his faith and practice his religion the way he pleases.

And what is with all the people wanting more money without working in the first place. All forms of workers demanded higher salaries; do you even do your job properly to demand such a thing? Does any of those Egyptians understand the concept of competition? Performance appraisal? tayeb job description? I didn't think so...

So here you go, a lazy population, living in a country without rules, a very weak government, military and police force, and most of it's people don't have values, principles or ethics. They are all politically ignorant, living below the poverty line, they have nothing to worry about and nothing to lose. So to hell with the whole country...

Mabrook shabab el thawra, the country is in chaos. And I am sure this will turn into a civil war.

Shut the HELL up!
Leave me alone..

I want to be alone.
I want my own time, freedom, and mind. I want my heart, my life, and money. I want me.

Where did I go? I see myself disappear more and more... I am tired.
I want to sleep. I want to eat a hot meal. I want to get whatever I feel like getting without feeling guilty or scared.

I am bored. So bored.

I want to breathe. I want to escape.
I want to go home. I really want to go home. I want to shower forever and sleep like never before.

I really want to get out of here...

Grey
Cylindrical
Undefined
Weird in a number of ways...

Not as planned. Not appealing anymore.
And you never stop dreaming of something better, so far away.

A cycle. A sick cycle...
Time flies. No achievements.
What's the point anyway...

Change? How?
Change? When?

Change! Is that even applicable?!

And what makes your day is a hot cup of coffee or a smile from a total stranger.