In Love!

Did I ever mention the fact that I'm in love?
I am in love.
In love with him.. My baby, my fiance', my love, my hubby, my world, my dream, my reality, my all...

Did I ever mention that he is everything that I ever dreamed of having?
He is charmingly adorable.. He is gorgeously sexy... He is the love and security... He is the present and the future.. He is my baby... The one I'm always proud of having.. The one I want to hold forever... He is "The" one.. The only one...

Did I ever mention that when I look into his eyes, I forget everything, I feel safe, I feel secure?
Did I ever mention that when I'm in his arms I feel like I'm home?
Did I ever mention that his smile means the world to me? Did I ever mention that his happiness is my only aim? Did I ever mention that he takes me breath away? He actually does take it away...

Baby... I love you angel.. I love you so much sweetheart.. And I cant wait to spend the rest of my life with you, grow old with you, share this life with you and be with you till my time comes...

Baby angel, I adore everything about you and I simply cant live without you..
Baby, you're the gift that God granted me..
Baby... I Love You :D

Happily Ever After?!

Is there something in the world defined as "happily ever after"?

Or is it just like all American and Egyptian movies that have to have a "happy" ending?

I mean does love exist? And does it exist in that form of "happily ever after"?

I always thought my parents were an ideal couple in the sense that they married for love and are still married and respect each other and all. But if you see them now after 27 years of marriage, they are not a happily ever after. I admit there is still respect, devotion, and commitment, but they barely talk to each other or love each other anymore. It is just that they got used to the existence of each other together. Is that what they call "happily every after"? Is that the love we read in books and see in movies? Is that what I've been wanting for all my life and looking for?

In economics, we got to learn that all theories we memorize so hard in school are just built on assumptions. They show you extreme scenarios that never exist so that you can understand what actually exists. Like in macroeconomics, we get to learn the types of markets; perfect competition, where suppliers all sell at the same price and all share in the profits of the market and all are happy. The extreme of that is monopoly, where one person controls the market of a certain comodity and raises its price on the consumer. And what we get to know is that perfect competition never exists in our world, its the dream we want to have for a perfect economy to exist, but its never there. But we also get to learn that monopoly exists and our world is an imperfect market, with imperfect development status, and imperfect policies and imperfect income distribution. Everything is "Imperfect".

So if imperfection is the "thing" going on in the material world, why would the love be so perfect and the marriage be so perfect and refered to as "happily ever after"? I doubt that this phrase has any truth in it.

If we consider marriage, dating, relationships, whatever you wanna name it, its just like the curve of a good being initiated in the market. It has a growth phase, maturity phase and a decline phase. And I guess from my little and negligent experience, this is what relationships is all about. And whatever they say in books, movies, therapies, is bullshit.

Life itself is like that. You are never fully happy and you are never fully sad and you are never fully satisfied. And usually your happy days are few and your sadness days are a lot and irritating. Relationships are like that too. You get to cope with a new person with new habits and new way of living and you end up clashing a lot. But the fact that you can actually live up those clashes and tolerate the shit that comes out every while and be happy with that person and also be miserable with that same person, then you succeeded in making a relationship work. BUT! that is not what should be called a "happily ever after". This is just survival in a world that has no meaning to me at all but to make a person suffer.

Anyway, so when you finally get the chance to pick a person to survive the world with, dont ever believe in the "happily ever after" theory, because it is just the best case scenario; what everyone hopes for; but doesnt really exist, because our world is an imperfect competitive market.

Its the first day of Eid and instead of enjoying myself, I'm lying here with my laptop, sleepless, bored and unhappy. Happy Eid everyone.