Women!!
Although I'm a woman, I keep failing to understand how they think and function.

In my new job, I happen to be dealing with a number of 40 women at the same instant. Some might think "I'm in heaven" because I'm dealing with my same species so I will totally understand their needs and feel comfortable around them. But the thing is, it has never been heavenly.

I've been occupying this job for the past 9 months. And all I've learnt is that men are so much easier to deal with than women. With the 40 women, I get 40 different opinions on food, on the quality of the professor, on the A/C temperature, and even on the I move a lot when I'm pregnant. Some told me that walking while in my 7th month is healthy. Others told me it might cause early labor.

Women are simply so complicated to please. You never know what will please them. With men it's easy. Good food, great sex, a smile, and some nice movies on TV or maybe a football match can make his world heavenly. But with women, their demands are much more than anyone can bear. Of course not all women are like that. But the majority are that crazy.

This fact in itself makes us "women" suffer. We are so moody, we PMS, we get pregnant, we do the house chores, we have a job, we raise the kids, we spoil the husbands, and we deal with mothers-in-law. We are patient and sacrifice a lot. Yet, this is not an EXCUSE!! I suffer a big deal by dealing with women every single day. I work in a female dominant environment, which is somewhat depressing. I thought that have a woman boss and colleagues would make them understand that I'm PMSing so I should be avoided, or I'm pregnant and deserve some time off. But the truth is, they don't. My boss has two kids, and she is always wanting to deny my right to maternity leave. She freaked out when I got pregnant, although when she had her first and second child, she got to work as a part-timer while earning her same salary.

Women are not always understanding and accepting of their female colleagues. Jealousy is one major thing women cannot get rid of. Whenever a woman walks into a resturaunt, you'd find all women sitting there checking her out from head to toe. And one of them might even have the courage to criticize a woman that she doesnt even know.

Women also tend to talk a lot. They have a never ending energy to talk about anything to anyone. I admit I am a woman who likes to talk and let my feelings out as much as I can. I feel relief when I talk about my problems, when I cry, when I complain. It's boring and irritating, but can we "females" help it?!

Today, I felt sorry for my husband that he has to deal with me everyday. But I felt even worse for myself because I have to deal with 40 women every single day.

Three months to go...
And the baby is getting bigger everyday second inside me...
Sometimes I feel happy that I'm having a baby. I always wanted to be a mum.
Other times I feel scared that I'm actually going to have an operation and let a "human being" out of my belly...
I get scared of the pain, of the responsibility, and of the change in life style...
I love my life the way it is right now. I have been so much looking forward to it... And el7amdolelah it has been more than perfect for me...

Sometimes I feel that I'm blessed to be making a family that soon. Some people crave to have children. I also feel loved by him with all the moodiness and crying he tolerates. Other times I feel heavy, tired of the short breath and the ill temper.

Sometimes I feel fat and ugly. Other times I feel pregnant, so I have the right to look like a monster.

I'm glad that I will have someone soon to look after... I will witness his growing up and learning new things. I will have someone filling the empty room in the house... Someone to love endlessly without any limits...

I'm worried that I won't be a good enough mum. That I would not raise him well. That he would suffer in this terrible world.

I hope he turns out to be a good boy...