This is not my place. Its not my room nor bed.
Its not my district and these are not my people.
I don't belong there...

I belong to some other place where I had no worries. I had no wars to fight and I had all the right to live and be what I want to be.

These are not the people I know and this is not the place I should be. This is not my kingdom like they told me it would be. This is not the life I was looking forward to and waiting for desperately. This is not the beginning and its not the end. Its a war and I'm not up to it.

I feel alienated and alone. I wanna go back home.
I want to go back to where I used to be, to where I used to drive and hangout. I want my world back. I want my peace back. I want the secure life I had. I want the love and care I used to live in. I want to feel safe again. I don't want to live in a state of warning for the rest of my life.

I'm certain of being left behind and I'm scared of it.