Couldn't sleep...
The list was haunting me all night.
I could c it all night long..
It was a bargain. A negotiation, where someone must win. A sales bargain. I was compared to a product. I was compared to a housekeeper. I was being sold.

How Cheap!
Its a killer feeling.
I resent it all.

I felt small, stupid, and objectified.
The only thing I was glad about is having a male figure to protect my rights and my dignity.
And from that day on, I will never dare ask for anything. Ever.

I want so much to hide and erase this from my memory.