Three months of fighting over and over..
Fights over the same issue.
I hear the same exact words, the same tone of voice, the same shouting, the same issues over and over.
The problem is never ending. And I dont know how to solve it and I dont know what to do.

I'm not the nagging type. And I'm not the type who likes fights, shouting, or trouble.
I'm sick of his shouting.
I'm sick of his complaining and I'm sick of him making me feel like I'm so weak.

Three months of shit. He is always asking and waiting for something to happen. And everytime he asks me, I have nothing to say so we end up fighting and I end up crying.

I hate his loud voice.
I hate his harsh words.
I hate his attitude.
I hate his intolerance.
Im always scared of his voice and scared of his brutality.

But at the end of the day, he is my protector, he loves me and I know that every single brutal word he is uttering is true and is reasonable. I know I should listen and do what he asks me to do, but I dont want to. I know he's right and I know he wants whats good for me, but still I dont want to listen to him. I also hate his way. I wish he was a little bit calm. I wish he had a better way of explaining things to me other than his loud voice and harsh words.

I'm tired of this never ending fight.
I'm so tired. And I really want to hide. I wish I could hide.
I wish I could travel far away from everyone I know. I wish I could be alone for a while.