While in bed waiting for sleep to come and end the day, I started thinking of the million things God gave me that I should be thankful for. I remembered those days when I was really miserable and believed back then that I was doomed with this misery forever. But I realised that its not true. Finally, I was given the reward I was waiting for.

I started off this year with something extra special. And I just realised that it has occupied all my writing, thoughts, daily actions, and my universe. I mean.. isnt he an angel?

I mean, whenever I feel down or face a problem, I think of him and I realise that there is nothing to worry about as long as he's here with me. Nothing compares to him and nothing deserves any worry or even happiness. He deserves all my thoughts, my time, my efforts, my attention, even my pains and worries. I shouldnt waste anything on anyone but him. He fills me with peace and love and a bunch of more good feelings that I can't really describe. I keep remembering the many good things we had together and I realise that this is the ultimate happiness. Its been 8 months and I feel like its been more than that. I can't remember anymore my life before him. And I really dont want to, because it was meaningless.

Yesterday, I kept telling my mum how much I loved him. I never thought I had the courage to express my emotions in front of my mum. But I did, and repeated it a million times till she was like "Ok, Ok, I know you love him".. I love him.