Jealousy has always been my source of trouble.
My dad is jealous. And with that comes hard time, problems, worries, basically trouble.
Supposedly, we're in the marriage preparation phase. My father happens to be an interior designer with great taste. But the thing is, he doesnt want to help me out. He doesnt want to do it. He doesnt want me to get married (he wants me to get married of course, but deep inside, he doesnt want me to leave, doesnt want me to belong to someone else). With those feelings at the back of his head, you can imagine the rest.
He only wants me to see my fiance' twice a week. He doesnt want me to go furniture shopping with him or plan the apartment with him. He doesnt want me to talk to him over the phone. He doesnt want me to say that I love him. He doesnt say these things out loud, but I can see them in his continuous illogical reactions.
The other day, baby and I found the style we want and finally agreed on certain parts of our apartment. I thought Dad would be so helpful in actually doing everything for us at a cheaper price (since he has a furniture factory). And to my surprise, he was like "I dont want to get into trouble with anyone, just buy the things you want ready made and dont put me in this hassal". I was shocked. He was all weird again. He actually furnished all the houses of all my family members. And he is my father, my personal interior designer, my personal advisor, and he doesnt want to get into a hassal for me. That was actually a lil frustrating. What teases me even more is that he appears to be really nice to baby and his mum. He is always cooperative and willing to help with anything. But with me, he gives me the attitude.
The other day, baby and I found the style we want and finally agreed on certain parts of our apartment. I thought Dad would be so helpful in actually doing everything for us at a cheaper price (since he has a furniture factory). And to my surprise, he was like "I dont want to get into trouble with anyone, just buy the things you want ready made and dont put me in this hassal". I was shocked. He was all weird again. He actually furnished all the houses of all my family members. And he is my father, my personal interior designer, my personal advisor, and he doesnt want to get into a hassal for me. That was actually a lil frustrating. What teases me even more is that he appears to be really nice to baby and his mum. He is always cooperative and willing to help with anything. But with me, he gives me the attitude.
I love him so much and I totally understand his jealousy feelings. But I simply need to have someone to help me out with the apartment. I need to finish it in time and get married. Wish Dad would really think and not act based on some emotions.
I'm totally frustrated from his attitude. I have to admit, I'm upset with him.
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