I was flying
Over the moon
I wasnt driving, I was flying...
Singing and dancing on my way home.
I was happy. Finally HAPPY.
I bought chocolate for all the house members.
I wanted to celebrate my happiness. I AM HAPPY.

Came home to find my mum and dad waiting for me to give me a lesson.
I wasnt late. My curfew is 10:30 and I came home at 9:30.
Dad started lecturing me that I shouldnt be seeing him till we get married.
He said that according to religion, I have to see him once a week at our house with everyone around. I shouldnt be going out with him that much or be alone with him.
He started breaking my heart and ruining every single feeling of happiness I had deep inside.
And although he used to see mum when they were engaged every single day, he assured me that I'm not allowed to do so because I have a pious father who doesnt want to disobey God and wants me to obey as well.

He told me that engagement is not for me to have fun, its for me to get ready for marriage. It doesnt mean going out, having fun, falling in love.

Then he started hurting me even more by telling me that I'm fragile, naiive, emotional and all "madloo2a" and he is doing all that to protect me from harm and he doesnt want to see me sad.

So here I am again, totally upset and enraged.
I feel like there is a big stone in my throat and I cant simply swallow it.
I feel helpless.