Here we go again!

For some reason, I turned from a really weak person to a revolutionary one. Two days ago, I left work with tears in my eyes that I couldn’t hold and as soon as I saw my baby I started crying. I was so sad and humiliated. My boss was so rude to me and I couldn’t take it anymore. She has always been like that, but with me, I keep tolerating till I reach a peak where I can’t take it anymore.

So I cried. Baby was there listening to my crying and my complaints. He couldn’t help but hold me and tell me not to cry. Eventually I was quite and told him that I decided not to go to work for one day. I will just "not go". I wasn’t punishing my boss. I was just turning into a new person; someone who is not polite anymore. I decided to be an uneasy person. I shouldn’t be that kind and surrender to her insults and bad treatment like I always do. At least I should revolt in the least ways. And my way was not to go to work and hide from her. I sent her a message and an email blaming her for what she is always doing to me. But as usual, she didn’t feel anything and all she did was blame me for not going to work and being irresponsible. So I decided to accept her description of me as irresponsible. I decided to become the total opposite of what I am now. I shouldn’t finish my work on time. I shouldn’t go to work early or finish my assignments before their due date. I shouldn’t love her or care for her. I shouldn’t help her out or be wherever she wants me to be. I shouldn’t be nice and kind. I shouldn’t be all selfless. I shouldn’t love my job after all. I should be the total opposite of that. And I really hope she likes the new me.