I felt embaressed

Ashamed, happy and relieved..

Embaressed.. I am embaressed...

Am I too demanding? I always thought I was not like all girls. I'm independent & I know the meaning of concepts like working hard, earning money, paying bills, paying loans... I also had the priviledge of being the eldest of 4 brothers and sisters, so I knew all about financial problems, responsibilities, obligations and how to deal with them. I tried them all, and survived them all (EHL).. I consider myself a lucky child. Everything I ever wished for came true.

But I was still embaressed and ashamed...

I didn't know how to be thankful anymore. I had to let it out, and I did. I complained and confessed. I said things I shouldnt have said, but I did. I need his support. I need him still. His role hasn't ended yet. He still has a role here. But he is escaping it. Or maybe he is unable to fulfill it. Or maybe even demanding that role and right makes me a demanding person. I know that many people don't have what I have, but others do.

I believe I'm not asking for too much. I have always been modest when it comes to requesting things. But maybe I'm wrong. And maybe I'm just right...